Your Favorite Color Is Turquoise.
I miss you. Not like I want you back as who I want to be with. I just miss you as my best friend… But I guess it’s true. You can’t stay friends with someone with whom you once had feelings for because, well, your feelings get in the damn way. Some days I wonder if you ever miss me back. As much as I wish you did, I doubt you ever do. She takes care of your mind now. You have someone so important to love, and I have nothing. Maybe you see her personality, because I can’t. She’s so plain compared to me. Maybe you like that about her. Maybe you disliked that about me. Maybe you two fight less than we ever did. Because you committed to her.
The song Sweet Disposition still gets to me, you know? It sounds stupid, but I remember where I was when we decided that was our song. I was coming out of physical therapy. Well, my point was that song was in the movie 500 Days of Summer, which inevitably reminds me of you. Of course. Just everything about it triggers my memories; the music, the story line, the characters.
I miss you.
And how you loved whenever I said, “I promise you.” And how I’d say that all the time because I knew how much you loved it.
And how you wrote me a song, which I just found today. I thought I lost it, but thankfully I didn’t. But losing a song wouldn’t hurt as much as losing you did.
But if you’re happy…
I’m happy.
